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Eating a fly
Being betrayed feels like eating a fly. The feeling of disgusts attacks episodically, incurring the visceral pain that gradually numbs the body. The soul has long been lost since the d day, discovery day. The soul was lost somewhere deep in the abyss of abandonment. I was betrayed, troubled and hurt. Hopes were dashed and…
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De-Depression
It feels like gazing into the rising tides, alone in a deserted beach. The inflows of water pour in, touching the toes, sneaking up the knees and eventually, devouring the body silently before completely vanish. This is how depression attacks. There is a vast wasteland upon the mind, deserted and withered. The sense of hopelessness…
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The Enigma of pain
Unfortunately, I have some firsthand experience with physical pain recently, which prompted to think about the enigma of the vivid, unbearable sensation. Pain is unique. The feeling of it varies greatly among individuals. The ability of enduring pain cannot be quantified or compared. One may find a knife cut merely nothing while the other may…
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Great expecting
Expecting is a marvelous process that is far from expected. We gullible human beings are forgetful of the initial nausea or sickness as if floating over the wavy sea. Nonetheless, after the bumpy ride when it begins, expecting is navigating into the smooth ride of sweet, blissful waiting. It is nothing like looking forward to…
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Cosmic aloneness
What I am drowned with is this gigantic but soundless state of abnormality. The level of severity makes it laughable to be called as the “elephant in the room” and more appropriate as the “Titanic in the room”. This shaky, homicidal Titanic is throwing passengers into the invasive abyss, as the wave of death pervades. Ironically…
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Monotony
Monotone colors somehow become fashionable in the design industry, as it seems nobody noticed that they are synonymous with “the same color”. Designers boast monotone for its simplicity, which sounds like uncreative and artless to me. Such palettes resemble our lives, or particularly my life, as most of the days are painted in monotone, even…
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Mayfly
In the lens of cosmology, we little human beings on earth are just like mayflies to those distant stars light years away. All that matter to us, are ephemeral, to the minds of galaxies in the universe. Thanks to astronomy, we are bequeathed with both relief and disbelief. The sense of studying human existence in…
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Slowburning
I could not help looking back in distant at my unmature naivety about the solidity of marital relationships. Years of harmful exposure to sugarcoated love stories and chick flicks has turned me into this gullible believer in the so-called fantasy of true love. Maybe I should have spent the wasted years in watching documentaries about…
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The Cog Diary
(⚠: The following content may allude to signs of pessimism or cynicism. Please read with caution and have your daily dose of optimism at hand.) It is not a day or two to feel like a meaningless cog in the machine, a catchy metaphor picked from the awesome TV show, Manhunt: Unabomber . Despite of…
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The Great Dopesick
The Dopesick is just a great show. It unfolds the heinous truths behind the rampant opioid crisis with soul-stirring stories of the prescribers, addicts, prosecutors and enforcers. The excitement has not abated, almost a week after I watched the last episode of the miniseries. I relived the scenes in my head, repeated the lines, and…
Martian Notes 